Not a love ballad

When I’m around you ,

My heart skips a beat. 

You take my breath away,

You make me stop in my tracks,

You freeze my thoughts, 

I think about you and cry

Longing, yearning, for a time long ago,

But this is not love ballad, no. 

My heart skips a beat like it nearly did, a thousand times after what you did. 

My lungs won’t breath, hoping if I’m quiet you won’t notice me, remind me...

All I can think of this that memory. 

The tears I shed, are mourning a time I wasn’t this, when you weren’t a monster. 

This is what I wish I felt, not love, not hatred, 

but nothing.