NOT MYSELF

Not feeling like myself, after you there basically was no room left for no one else. do I still got it or is that what I believe . Haven't been doing what I do in a while but it just happens naturally. When someone wants to be with someone they can make room somehow in their schedule to fit them. Have I changed why do I seem mean and careless is me or is it the people around me. Looking back think like damn I miss the old me when I used to be the one that made your day and you made mine. Thinking it was going to happen but I guess that time has stopped and now I feel stuck, do I have still have it. Do I have what it takes for me to think damn that shanty is fine haven't done that I'm a while. I must have said good bye for now maybe when but what was I thinking. It seems but it wasn't its good but felt bad. Not ready for that seriousness, for some reason I don't know, I let you in now no one has ever got that far. You opened up to me to well hey it was good for the moment. Why haven't I been the old me what have I changed into, a, the one I once wanted to be or it was just maturity that hit me. I didn't think that it was meant to be but I damn sure felt it. Missing the old me the one I used to be the more spontaneous me, the happier me, the one filled with joy, and a bundle of joy when spoken to. What happened that is still unanswered, I'm puzzled, just don't know why. Am I the one that I once wanted to be or is this the new me.