Not the Only One

Today I wonder

If today is my last

Tomorrow, today

Should be in the past

I shoulder my burden

And carry my weight

Knowing these thoughts

Are a self-fulfilling fate

I am lying through my teeth

Smiling through the pain

Crumbling inside

Hoping in vain

Today I feel strong

Like maybe I'm finally free

Of all the wrong thoughts

That are scarring me

I stand up straighter

I laugh with my friends

Thinking to myself

That today won't be the end

But later on

The darkness still creeps

I dive into words

Until I tumble into sleep

Today I will read

Six hundred pages

Of dragons and princesses

Lost lands and mages

I make my escape

In any way I can

The ultimate prison break calls

Yet here I still stand

There is beauty around me

In the Sun in the sky

But I close my eyes

Because I know I can't fly

Today I will write

Of friendships and hope

Burning dreams

Count the ways that I cope

My finger's are slipping

On life's lonely ledge

But I am determined

To pull myself up from the edge

With promises and plans

With, "I'm fine, don't worry."

I'm concluding

This sad chapter in my story

Today I know

That everyone has problems

And sometimes it's hard

To find the courage to solve them

I'll find the strength

Because I can be brave

And in the end

There are others to save

I've learned how it hurts

I've cried alone

I know that I am

Not the only one