Not you

Spencer Bennett 

I loved you 

I only wanted you to

All I seen was you 

All I cared bout was you 

I only wanted to travel with you 

I only wanted to love you 

I opened up too 

I told you to much 

Now I can’t handle the pain 

Of us not begin together 

Sometimes I explain my pain 

So we wouldn’t have to walk thru that rain 

Sometimes I cried out for help 

Sometimes I was just drowning 

Sometimes I was just to much 

Sometimes I just wants enough 

Sometimes you made me cry 

Sometimes you hold me tight 

Sometimes you cheer me up 

What happen 

Was I just a fade 

Was I just blind to something I thought that could be 

Was I pouring my heart for someone who has no soul 

I can’t help but wonder 

If I wasn’t alive would everybody be better off 

Would he find somebody he really happy with 

Will my family be strong enough to understand I did all I can 

Will my children understand the battles I had to fight just to see them 

Will my children understood I been fighting for 13 years to be a mother 

I been fighting for somebody to love me 

I been fighting for somebody to see me 

I been fighting for somebody in my corner 

I been fighting for a rock 

I been fighting for true 

I did all this fighting over things I couldn’t control 

Before I knew it 

I came crashing down fast 

In a blink of an eye 

I realized all I been chasing comes from my childhood 

All the relationships