Note to Self

Wake Up.

It's what my me says to itself as we try to figure out which was is left, and which is right

Wake Up.

I've been stuck for over 7 years

Drowning in tears and sorrow

Longing for the tomorrow that would never come

Wake Up!

Nightmares flood in

Always reminding me of my past sins

And sinners always go to hell

Or end up rotting in some jail cell

Or end up dead...

Lights flicker, just like my memories do

I was there, but I wasn't

It happened but it didn't

I want to speak out but I can't

Please Wake Up!

Fear clogs my lungs

What once was a voice of passion

Now left unsung

My body then incapacitated

Why couldn't I move
Why didn't I move, run, fight

Wake Up!

How long can  you allow sorrow, pain, and fear to guide you

It's been 7 years

Where are you? Where have you been?

We stay around siblings, family and friends

Yet you have been sleep, stuck in your nightmare of sorrow

Instead of worrying about today,your thinking about tomorrow

But the problems of here and now forever stay in our shadows

So you have to wake up!

Some things we cannot change

Instead of letting it ruin your life embrace the pain

And be the person you know you can be

Stop drowning in this imperfection of reality

And acknowledge that this is our life

I am you, you are me, and we are us

And I have to wake up

No more excuses, or perplexing situations

Or judgemental faces

Looking back at me in the mirror

7 years

Long nights, sound tears

Because of the imperfection of my reality

But life is not perfect

Sunshine does not ripple out of the skies

Concealing us with ignorance by soothing our minds

Life is hurt

It is confusion

And delusions of endless love

Life is everything you don't want it to be

But it is also what you make it

Stop trying to sleep through life, faking it

This time you have to wake up

And for the first time in 7 years I am WOKE!