Nothing Burns Worse

but honestly that sings that I would not be me

 

When I am happy being me.

 

I'm happy trying make you smile and laugh, not ask for pictures of your tits or your ass

 

Nothing burns worse than you not knowing I would have appreciated

 

everything you had to offer from that perfect smile down to your feet

 

and from your lungs that exhale a mist of pure happiness and joy for me

 

to your loving heart in which I seek more than just to see your eyes

 

and hear your laugh, it's just a sudden rush for me

 

Nothing burns worse than knowing that all your work wasn't even thought of

 

Knowing that you did every single thing you could do to make her happy

 

Calling her the gorgeous princess she is and trying to make her feel as beautiful as she is every day,

 

And just my luck,

 

That was a swing and a miss from the one person with which I'd enjoy a meaningful kiss

 

to realize she didn't give two shits about a guy who visualizes her as a goddess 

 

unlike the other guys that aim at her heart with a kick

 

Nothing burns worse than when you can't give her the world you know damn well she deserves

 

It burns with a white hot fire to realize that SHE is your world 

 

But clearly you can't give her that

 

And you can try to receive a glimpse of appreciation of your love,

 

For that world that has an open heart and a cute love for guinea pigs and rabbits

 

that'd rather go for "bad boys" that smoke more than cigs

 

by giving her a symbol of your love 

 

I took my love for that brunette world with big brown eyes

 

and put it into a stuffed bunny 

 

And I thought I'd try to be smoother than honey because I had spent all my money and I thought I could win her over by trying to be kinda funny

 

I gave her the rabbit and I told her I wanted to be more than just friends 

 

And it rattled my brains to hear what she said

 

"I don't like relationships. I'm cheated on by the end

 

When I'm the one who's loyal, and no it doesn't depend

 

On who it is, it's always the same thing when it's my heart that I lend

 

To them, and in return I get a message that he meant to send

 

To the girl he was cheating with"

 

But I'm not like that.

 

I'm not like that

 

I'd realize that you're the one who I'd be with 

 

I'd cherish you for who you are 

 

I'd try to take you near and far and

 

I'd want to just sit with you in a car

 

And simply spend the night staring at the stars 

 

I'd try to make you smile every chance I get

 

Please, can't you see?

 

That I'd never cheat because that would defeat the purpose 

 

Of knowing that you're holding hands with me?

 

Nothing burns worse than hearing her say she didn't care about that

 

Because "she'd heard that from all the other guys"

 

At that very moment my heart sank to the floor

 

And when it slammed into the ground it shattered into a million pieces

 

With each of the million pieces representing a reason why I loved you

 

It burned to the core to remember what you said just before I said "goodnight beautiful"

 

Two nights before I gave you the bunny.

 

You said that I was the last person on Earth that you would expect to cheat

 

And that meant as much of a world to me as you did, do, and always will mean to me

 

Nothing burns worse than the feeling of being wrecked by love

 

Everything feels destroyed

 

It'll leave cursing until they put you in a hearse and 

 

Then you'll finally realize 

 

That I would do anything for you to see me as the right person.

 

And you missed your chance

 

Because you made me want to drown in bourbon

 

When I just wanted to make you feel better; feel like a person

 

But I've moved on now

 

I put out the flames that once burnt me

 

With the realization that I don't need anybody but me