N.U.M.B

Im numb to the pain and the abuse i recieve from others. My mind is opened to the idea but my heart is beatin slow. i cant feel the love that he gives to me but yet i say i love him. i know theres love there but once again my heart is neglected to feel it. soon this behavor will push him away but to me that would be ok. cuz the love i was lookin to found is sittin in front of my face but to find out he's out of time. the clock to my heart has reached zero, right when you came into my life. not wantin you to be hurt i stayed. now im hurtin you on a whole new level because this is a game of love. a game so strong that both friendship and relationship would be gone forever and even though my mind is aware of the acttions my heart still feels no pain. I have become so freezin to my emotions that i cant see who im hurtin in the proccess. the monster in the mirror is me and i cant even see it. my mind can only be aware of it but my heart is going numb.