The Observer

Your so close but yet so far
ive always watched you from afar
wanting to talk to you for a little while
to get to know you
but i cant...
we could have been friends
i know we would have gotten along well
but the closer you are
the more hurt you will become
so please dont mind me
im just a cursed memory
forced to watch you as you live
without me
so much i wish i could tell you
and most of all goodbye
cuz i wont let you get hurt
just live happy for me
even though this hurts so much
to stay away from you i can
cuz you mean the most to me
and you didnt even try
i believe in luck and life
so i was utterly surprised
to find you so close to my side
when i am the most unluckiest person alive
oh how i love you so but you must go
if you get close to me
you wont live to see another day
so i feel the need to tell you
that i cannot bare to see you die
 just dont forget that i will always care for u
you can leave me behind cuz i dont even mind
im so used to the silence and the emptiness
that has been part of my life
if you hear my cries
in the middle of the night
just go back to sleep
ill be alright
ill stay strong for you
cuz its the least that i can do
i refuse to let you lose
and fall into the blackness i am in
ill catch you wherever you fall
when there is no light in the darkness
ill destroy it all
through it all from dusk to dawn
im forever watching over youim your ever living rose
cuz ive been tainted from red to black
frozen by the time unknown
dead inside from having to stop myself so many timescuz reaching out for you is something i wish to try
but i know what will end up happening next
if its all the same to youi know you probably dont feel the same as i dobut i cant help but wonderingabout the truth
honestly what is there to likeim a mess most of the time
cant be bothered to fix my hair or do  my nails
i feel its just a waste of time
not to mention how broken i am inside
but a part of me thinksthat you could be the onewho can heel me inside out
is that so wrong to find
someone who can save me from myself
yes indeed i am the sad stranger
so many things i could say
that just wont come out right today
ill stumble and my words will fall
no use pretending
for now and possibly foreverill watch you silently behind
to keep you from living a sad life