An ode to youth

I had always been the extrovert

The center stage and pose for the camera little darling that would make parents wonder how they were raised

I loved it

I spent years trying for it

Trying hard for people who didn’t care and auditioning for roles which were typecasted against me

My love of acting diminished along with my old train of thoughts,

Peers found me to be less of a show and more of an annoyance

With art school came ineffability, 

in both of the definitions presented on a primary google search

My persona was slowly unspoken of while

My personality grew within learning of itself.

Realization of maturity didn’t present itself until recently.

though my path lay undecided I hold a reasonable efficacy in my passions and

I can find joy in being backstage and supporting while still posing for a camera

The actual blow came when people started hiring me for productions,

I’d never been recognized like that before and 

It made me feel so 

Accomplished

And sure of my talents and ability to succeed as an adult

Before my mind had been clouded with delusions of failure

But i’ve been rewarded with the ability to know I’m good

And be quite spectacular under any pressure

I know how to hold myself and speak out

I’m still quite the extrovert, 

and darling, 

I love it