OH THE PAINS I HOLD WITHIN

The Pains I Hold Within

I lay in my bed and think about you 
I love you so much I don't know what to do 
I feel your warmth at my side but then I  
Have to say it is all lies , 
The pain in my heart moves to my eyes 
And the rain came down so hard it had  
Gone on for days , 
I don't know why I let you get me this away 
Your so far away how did I get this away , 
Your words one the phone just got my heart 
Thinking love had found me , 
But with time my heart just couldn't take no more 
You would tell me you love me and you would  
Say the words my lonely heart needed to hear  
But my heart needed much more , 
I needed someone to hold and wipe away my  
Fears and tears , 
I await the times when we can talk but then I  
Think why we only talk for five minutes in the  
Morning and five at night then it was goodbyes 
All I had left when we hanged up was tears in my 
Eyes and lonely nights , 
Hanging on to hopes,and wishes ,and dreams of  
A could be if I do everything you ask me to , 
I await the times we can finally hold hands and walk 
To feel you for real... so close to me with a kiss, 
I await the time when my hand is in yours 
To hear you say those 3 little words. 
There are still no words I can say to describe 
My heart it aches and my eyes they cry 
That's when I had to say no more this love  
On line is not the way I want love to be  
So I had to set you free I need to breath . 

Lilly Emery (C)