Okay

"Okay"

Passes through my lips

Hasn't touched my mind

In a long time

Actually

I can't remember

The last time

Okay was actually

Okay

Everything is fine

Nothing is really wrong

But okay doesn't feel 

Honest

and honestly,

To lie about being anything

At this point is

Wrong

Maybe its not though

Because yesterday was fine

and today is just

Blurry

In my mind, mostly

Thats where I spend my time

But now it feels so

Distant

Have I been given too much space

But all I think about is galaxies

Out there where my mind

Wanders

But is it really wandering 

If that is home

More than 

Here 

Where no one else seems to think

About the moon during the day

Only because it isnt

Shining

Maybe that's the problem

I just want to connect

But I'm not

Me

Not the me I knew

and everything is moving

I want to stay the

Same 

But the same as what?

Because not this

But God, not 

Change

So maybe I'll just stay

Distant and unsure

As you

Wait

For the reply I thought I gave

It passes my lips

While I'm trapped in my mind

"Okay"