Okay Forever by Lenniahelen

Lately I’ve been feeling lonely and depressed 

And maybe it’s bc I’ve had too much rest

I can’t seem to fix myself 

Maybe I just need to straight 86 myself

Nahh I’m just playing 

But really I’m just saying that I need help

Even though I won’t ask you

I want you to see my drowning

I’m suffering in the middle of the road

Far from my home

I’m in a place which feels familiar 

I remember this

The feeling where I was kissed

By the lips of suicidal thoughts and depression

Whew child I hate this misconception 

Y’all thinking I’m fine, but I want to blow my brains out

Scream and shout and let it all out

Willi.am this person being speared and pierced w/ the black eyes of deception 

Losing my connection 

With my soul

I have all these holes 

That have failed to be filled

And I walk around empty

Maybe this is who I’m meant to be 

But it’s okay

Bc ik that dark days

Don’t last forever 

But my hope for happiness does.