Hello, old friend, it seems like your back again

I thought i got rid of you I guess i was wrong

You were gone for a year and a half 

Then one day you jumped right on my back

I haven't thought of you in a while

But now you plague my every thought with this huge smile

I wish you didn't come back my life was at peace

But now I have to figure out how to get you to leave

I didn't want to act on you but you pulled me right back in

You told me all the lies 

Like a friend should never do

Stupidly i believed you

Now i am at this fork in the road

Where i must decide if you must stay or you must go

There are times i like having you

There are times that i do not

But you feel that empty void 

While you are around

For a short while, i feel like i am in control

Then you tell me what i should eat and how i should dress

You slowly take everything away from me

My freedom and my pride

you become the only thing i think about

The one that makes me cry

Till one day you just leave again 

and leave me on the floor

An empty shell of someone who was once worth fighting for

Broken and bruised I decide you must finally go

I will miss you my friend but i know you won't be far

You will always be in the back of my mind

Just waiting for that day for me to react and you tell me that I'm fine

For right now i guess you are around to stay

To tell me all the lies and that i am afraid

You tell me that i am worthless and that i will never be perfect

Then turn around and tell me i need to strive for perfection

we sit down and scheme all the ways to be perfect

You tell me this is really worth it

I let you stick around but only for a short while

Knowing that one day we might meet again

My good old dear friend