OLD PAINS WITHIN

Old  Pains Within 

I exist in the depths of solitude 
pondering my true goal on love 
And what I call my own . 
Trying to find peace of mind on what 
Is right in Jehovah's eye's , 
God is still preserve my soul for true love 
I am always constantly yearning to be accepted 
By my own how I gave life to , 
And they don't even give respect . 
I never compered God's love to the night because  
That would never be right in Jehovah's eye's . 
My only regret is I made life to the night  
When I was out running with the wind . 
Four young heart trying to make a life without  
Jehovah God on their side . 
How can there be peace in their life if they are  
Running with the night ! 
How can I be in the depths of solitude with the  
Pains I let set in . 
I set up at night and sometimes I cry asking God why 
Did I do this to my life ,  
Then I gave birth to four living souls that tree whats  
To let go and one wants to run in light with me , 
And the other want to run with the wolves  of the night  
Sometimes I cry when I'm alone and on my own getting old, 
The tears I cry is wishing to love and to undo all that  
I had done in my life and make it right in your eyes Jehovah 
My tears flow deep like the pouring rain of much pains , 
I cry because my heart is torn . 
Sometimes I found it hard to sleep at nights with so much on my mind, 
No love in sight to tell me I am going to be alright . 
It's painful and sad and sometimes crying is a friend within . 

Lilly Emery (C)