One More Time

So many thoughts flood my mind 

I look to the sky and ask God "one more time?"

I made it a habit to search for love, acceptance, and comfort in others

I failed to prioritize the one thing that remained constant in my life

With age, I've noticed that the moon compliments the sky

Love compliments hate

The sunshine always follws the rain

And God's plan is what some call fate

The pain deems unbearable at times

But just like a child with stage fright, the performance proves the mind irrational.

There's so much light around me

Why would I choose to focus on the darkness

Nothing grows in the dark

And dim light is deceptive

I climbed the mountain of adversity 

But on the way down, I hit the ground so hard

Too hard sometimes

It becomes repetitive

But my body refuses to die

So when I get back up

I look to the sky and ask God "just one more time?"

This time will be different 

All the falling and breaking was necessary

Because my character was on the line.

Jeremiah 29:11-13