One night

Just an hour of ecstasy On a foreign bed with stranger You didn't know the name of Because it is just one night Nothing happens to me, that's what you told yourself when You got out for the night Had been so confident too Until you weren't lucky anymore And then you regret it all Those nights of pleasure With strangers you didn't care But now you do care About the name in certificate That would point as father You can't help but to blame Loneliness that drove to Numerous night outs Roundness in your belly Seems to be mocking you With soul crashing loneliness That seems to be taking It's revenge for ignorance Pillowcase dried with tears Replacing alcohol as your Remedy, you tell yourself That all will be fine Time heals everything But you wonder at night Rolling in your bed Thinking about sweet angel Who would be lonely Just like you because Of incomplete family Your childhood flashes Across your eyes,making You remember the busy mom And stepfathers who never care And then you would promise To be better than that For your little cherub