Motivation? I don’t get that

Support? What’s that?

The only thing I have

Is a fear of failure

The fear of being abandoned

The fear of being alone

The fear of being a disappointment

 

Tick tick tick. Scratch scratch scratch

 

Chipping away at the work before me

Struggling to breathe when I can’t swim

Being tugged down by the weights they put upon my shoulders

Hearing their words

Hearing my words

Their voices swirling in my head telling me I can’t be

 

No

I can’t

I have one goal

One ambition

One little thing that saves me

One thing dear to my heart that keeps me from losing my sanity

One thing

 

I have to try