It's been almost a year
That's three-hundred-sixty-five days
since the last time I saw you
Since the last time you had life inside you.
I remember the wires, the hoses, the machines
The quiet beeping everytime the machine would breath.
The machine breathed for you.
I remember the smell of hand sanitizer
and medicine, and bleach, and rubbing alcohol.
I promise, that isn't how I remember you.
Not there, in that bed, your eyes closed.
You know, they brushed your hair?
Because mom kept talking about how
you would hate to see your hair like that.
But no, I remember you in your back yard
Watching the neighbors house because
"this is the third party they've had this week."
Fixing the swing set that all of us grandkids
were too big to play on now. Building it
for those "partying" neighbors of yours.
I remember you in the garage in the middle of the night
fixing The Dome that you bought from the
Perkins Observatory when I was twelve.
You made me love the stars, do you know that?
I look up in the sky and I think of you.
I know you've probably spent your last year
visiting every strange world you can.
I've spent my last year trying to figure out
which one of those stars is you. I think I know.
Back in the back yard, just me and you
loading your Magnum to show me how to shoot
And I shot that pop can right off of the tree house.
You taught me how the aim high and low.
I even shot through the same spot on the can twice!
At the fairgrounds and in the farmer's bare corn fields.
Swinging your metal detector around
looking for buried treasure and history.
That is how I remember you.
Do you know you made me love history?
That's why I'm here, in this dorm room
Geez, you should see this place,
You'd love it, you really would.
I'm getting ready to do something great
I wish you could be here to see it
To see the person that you shaped.
It's been almost a year now, do you know that?
And being a year without you
all three-hundred-sixty-five-days without you
I try my best to remember you every day.
Mom misses you, Dad misses you,
My sister misses you, My brother misses you too.
Your wife misses you, but I miss you the most.