One Year In a Month

Your memorie appeared magically in my head as if i was invoking you.And it’s not because i’m still in love with you, or i want you back.Its just because at one point of my life you were the reason for my smiles, the one that made me happy.Not long ago we had a beautiful love story.

By just remembering your name all the memories of us invaded my mind.Like the first time i saw, when we went to the beach together and you almost drawn, or the time when we went to get piercings and as i cried like a little baby because of the pain you holded my hand to make me feel better.

We didn’t spend a year together, but it felt like it.

In a month we did more things than couples than couples that have been together for years couldn’t do.

In a month we created a kind of love different of all others.In a month we went from January through December, a whole year in a month .

How was that possible? i don’t really know how but we did.

I remember all the times we spended together, how your eyes filled with glow every time you saw me.How your hand fitted in mine.We were just meant to be.But i know, nothing lasts forever, everything has an end.

But was our end too soon?Did we have more things to do before separating?I  don’t know but i felt we were going to be the exception, that we were going to walk through life together until the end of our lives.I remember you saying “Not even dead death is going to tear us apart cause even if we die we are going to be together in hell or heaven or any place we go”. These were powerful words, hard to believe, but somewhat i thought you were saying the truth.We went from July 2 through August 2.A whole month full of joy, tears,fights,love, unforgettable moments that we spend together and that are always going to be in my mind as a reminder of what we were.Do you remember that day we were in my living room watching your favorite movie and you promised you were neve going to leave me?All those sleepless nights, all those days full of joy.When you fell asleep and i wrote things in your face, when i made you breakfast,we we went to your house,when we went to the mall,everywhere we go you always holded my hand, no matter what you never let it go.I felt protected by you i thought you were never going to harm me.Every memory is still in my head,so vivid, so clear as a summer day’s sky.These memories are stuck in my head.I wish there was a delete button so i could erase you from me, forget about you and all those things.I feel guilty.Why? its was my fault, i felt i was the cause of our separation.I had to leave, the summer was over and i needed to go back home, but i promised you to come every single weekend to see you.You agreed, so next weekend when it was time to see you, i was so anctious.I waited and waited for million hours and you never came.You made something up to justify yourself, i didnt wanted to argue so i just let it go.Every single weekend you made up a new excuse, we were separated for a month and you didnt even seemed to care.I started to feel weird, i didn’t cared anymore,i didn’t felt like seeing you.When i talked to you i felt cold, distant, i didn’t felt butterflies in my stomach.Those butteflies were dead, there were destroyed, leaving me empty, leaving me cold, as the winter.Who could’ve been so cruel to kill those poor butterflies, who?Who turned of the flame of our love?Was it me, or you?No.It was the distance, yes the cruel distance was the guilty one the one that broke what were into little pieces.Distance killed my butterflies, distance froze my feelings, yes it was distance.Why could the distance be so evil, so cold-hearted to destroy a love like ours?We were meant to be.Together we made a love potion.I was your strength, you always told me that,No matter how many problems you had, no matter if the world was falling apart, you were always going to be next to me because i was your hope, i was what motivated you to keep on going.You told me i was your idea of forever.Those were powerful words, but i managed to believe you.And know that i see the truth,that i see how a forever can only last a month, that a life together can be just 31 days.I remember all those nights when you hugged me until i fell asleep, how those dark circles would form under your eyes making you look even cuter than what you already were.How yours eyes would popped up in the morning and filled the whole room with joy.Your smile could turn every bad situation into a perfect day.You were the brightness in the darkness of my world.You lighted me up like fireworks, like those they light up in New Year and fill the whole sky with light.That was the effect you caused on me.I loved everything about you, your good things, your bad things.For my eyes you were perfection.I remember how much you loved my lips, you said their color reminded you of wine, and you loved wine, so you loved my lips.You had an addiction for wine, you couldn’t live without it.I feel you loved wine more than you loved me.Maybe thats why every weekend you rather went out with your friends and your wine rather than being with me.You prefered a bottle of alcohol, than me.Now i see what really happend.I was so dumb blaming the distance.Poor inocent distance i was blaming her for something that wasnt even her fault.The only one that should be blamed is you.Yes, you were the one that tear apart what we were, the one that turned off the blame of our love.You killed my butterflies, destroying everything in me, leaving empty and cold.I remeber how you suffered when i broke up with you.When people asked “What happened to you guys?You seemed so happy together”.Yours eyes filled with tears, and you started crying.Rivers of tears formed under your eyes.Your friends told me you were destroyed, that nothing brought you up.Its sad i made you feel like that, but that's what you earned for killing my butterflies.Now you are saying you feel sorry for doing this to me and you want a second chance, but it's too late.Your hangover lasted too much, you waited a lot to realize about what you have done, and yes you harmed me, but don’t worry i'm alright.I didn’t cried a single tear for you, because you are not worth it.Boys like you that say they want a formal relationship but they keep on drinking and partying, doing drugs and don't caring about their health are not worth anything to me.Boys like you that make alcohol a priority over their girlfriends don't deserve anything.This doesn't means i hate you, it means that i'm not dumb and i'm not going to be the girl that is going to be always there for you.I'm not going to be there just like a dog waiting for you.No, im not those types of girls, if you harm me i’ll harm you.And dont worry about me because i’m okay, i’m happier than ever.Im doing great without you.Don’t feel bad for killing my butterflies, two weeks ago they came back to life.There this boy and hes just perfect.His beautiful green eyes revived my butterflies, making them fly like crazy inside me.In fact he is infront of me while im writting this.But i didnt came to write about him, or to blame you or nothing like that.Im here to thank you for everything you gave me, love,happiness, thank you for all the time we spended together, and although it dont seem as much, for me it was, i felt it was a year or even more.We didnt have the end we wanted, but at least we had something beautiful.I hope you use this as a lesson, and you dont do the same mistakes with your next girlfriend.And i hope someday you can forget about the tears, and when you remember me instead of crying you smile.12 months in 31 days, that's the length of our love story.In life people promise alot of things.They say they are going to be together forever, for infinity.In life there are many types of infinities, some are bigger, others are smallers.Our infinite lasted 31 days, and im happy to say those 31 days, that infinite, was the best of my life,and no matter what i will always remember it.Its an event that marked my life forever.