Only Eighteen

Dear Justin, 

Only Fifteen 

Still Learning How to Live 

You taught me how to stay strong. 

You gave me laughter and smiles. 

During a time I only had sadness and grief. 

You had me and I had you. 

Only Sixteen

I'm trying to live 

Trying to find the will to. 

You showed me the will. 

With your suspicious smirk 

that would insinuate a devious plan 

that would lead to the memories we made together. 

You had me and I had you. 

Only Seventeen

I've found the will to live. 

I'm working on a dream. 

And with you by my side 

I know I can achieve anything. 

My best friend. 

My so called partner in crime as everyone would say. 

The person I've shared everything with. 

The person I look up to. 

The person I admire most. 

You had me and I had you. 

Only Eighteen

I'm back to square one. 

I should be happy. 

I've made new friends. Shared new experiences. I've done better 

Than I had ever done before. 

But I can't be happy. 

I can't smile. 

Because you were only 18. 

You had no dream. 

You didn't see yourself achieving anything. 

You lost your will. 

You let the weight of the world that surrounded you 

break you down until you felt nothing. Until you were so scared you 

wanted to become nothing. 

So you did. 

Only Eighteen. 

Now I don't have you. 

Your Best Friend, 

Leanne