Only then will they Understand

One day I hope they'll see

this is just a sad part of me

their hearts I do not mean to break

I do it for my own souls sake

I want to smile and often do

except for when I think of you

Your coldness chills me still

its takes away my sense of will

I sit in crowds, yet feel alone

Waiting for the rest of me to come home

My heart and mind feel scattered

picking up all the pieces thar shattered

I ache, I hurt, I feel

the pain is so surreal

I wish you could see

how tortured you have made me

I want to start a new life

Have children and be a wife

But its hard to have a clear view

when I live in fear of you

I dont see an end to my plight

And I am losing the will to fight

I see your face, hear your laugh

It takes my breath, its makes me gasp

You are long gone

I know where you thrive

it seems so wrong

that I struggle to be alive