Only Wishing

            Only Wishing

• I once saw us and now I only see myself 

• You sometimes would tell me “To live to the fullest of our lives” 

• But you haven’t so should I? 

• I ask myself do I? or do I go to heaven with you?

• Drinking makes me feel better but how about you? You told me not to, I don’t listen but don’t worry  because all I hear is your voices in my head

• I wish you were still here to help me 

• I onced practiced saying things to you until it was useless

• Was it me? Sometimes I blame it on myself 

• My bad dreams are you and so are my good ones 

• I still pretend you're next to me on the streets 

• Are you still there? 

• Well then maybe I will be too

• I always told you, “Everything is alright.” but is it? 

• What's the deal right? “What's wrong?” They would say to me. 

• I sometimes try to smell the tears from our old room reminding me of you

• Is it a sin to be with you? 

• I hope this is just the end so I can be with you but it's only the beginning 

• Maybe one day I’ll know it's just a dream or should I know now?

• Don’t worry, I’m not afraid

• I’m only wishing for you 

• You used to fill the holes in my body with love but now their filled with with sorrow 

• No one ever tells you wishes come true but I still hope mine will 

• I hate this feeling of loneliness so I try to sleep and hope I dream of you 

• People say they care but they don’t 

• I never knew emptiness weighed the most 

• Sometimes everything means nothing when your not around 

• I’m the only one that wishes twice 

• Depression fills your heart with bad things but it doesn’t change you 

• I’m still wishing here so don’t worry, I’m almost there

• I’ll always find a way