only you

I don't want to change 

I want my eyes to glow softly 

like they do now

My skin to stay pale and smooth

until age wrinkles my organs to dust

I want to be able to remember my days

brain cells to be used for what they are meant for 

through out all the years I live

worrying about your next fix is not in my plans for us

but us can change too.

I want only you

not the addiction

I want to look into your eyes 

see the vibrant blue come out to sparkel again 

to feel your lips moist and soft against my own

instead of staring at white foamy meth mouth

I want to tease the you I used to know with big words you didn't understand

now I only get the you that can't remember the words I say

you worry about it instead of us

your habit has taken you over 

I have to let you go 

I wanted only you 

and ended up with the addiction