Our Generation

You told me you loved me

But you're not the relationship type

My world only evolved in your presence

The mere thought of you illuminated my life

But I didn't own you; you weren't mine

The thought of you making another feel the way I felt

Only deepened the need to fill this bottomless pit

I let you enter my soul

I gave you all I had, every last bit of me

Not knowing that your soul purpose in life

Was to tear me apart from the inside

Leaving me in a cold, desolate place

Where I could only hide behind the shame and the guilt

Both of which gnawed at the grain of confidence i owned

Without looking back; Within the blink of an eye

You moved on

Somehow you found a way to be the relationship type

As soon as I had gathered enough strength to pick myself up

The sight of your fingers so intertwined with hers

Shot me back down and again I'm wounded

She won't even give you half of what I gave you

How did she get the honor and I get the curse?

The dots fail to connect in my head

But I no longer let this delinquent steal from me

I only let the fire brewing inside carry me

Then comes along my Ice Prince

Extinguishing the fire as fast as it started

He shows me the things i felt before

Were only a figment of my imagination

He pushes me to do nothing but be extraordinary

He caresses my healing heart with no desire to caress my body

I was at the gates of Heaven

After clawing my way through Hell

But he was not a forgiving God

I was tainted; covered in Sin

He wanted nothing to do with me

His precious jar had been opened

I felt myself slipping back to that familiar, cold, desolate place

~This is the generation we live in, where you give your all then end up rejected and get rejected for giving your all.