Our Main Goal

Our main goal.

What they push us towards.

"Be yourself"

But how can I do that when I don't even know how?

How to talk my own words without being hated

How to dress my own way without being judged

How to show my own love and passion for something or someone without being called "crazy"

Our main goal.

What they push us towards.

"Make sure you act your best"

But how can I do that when my best is your worst?

How can I do that when I can't talk the best?

How can I wear my best clothes and still look bad to you?

How can I love the one I love but he's not the "best"

in your eyes.

Our main goal.

What they push us towards.

"Be successful"

But how can I do that when success, to you, is measured by how much money or how many things I have?

How can I do that when the clothes I wear are considered ratty or not name brand like yours?

How can I do that when the things I say will never be enough to get anywhere?

How can I do that when the kind of love I love with is the kind that you call "destructive"?

So I just hide.

I hide behind everything I'm expected to be in order to be "myself"

Or the self you want to see in me.

I hide in order to act "my best"

Or the best you wish I'd be.

I hide in order to be "successful"

Or the successful you want for me

I hide in order to be loved by you

wanted by you

I hide so you will be proud of me.

But at the end of the day you don't love me

You don't want me

You're not proud of me

You just love the idea you have

The idea that I sustain

of me

So I ask you

Your main goal.

What I should push you towards

Should it not be to love me for me?

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