Over and Out

krshhhh "223, we have a gun shot victim on 52 Heartbeat Rd. Confirm you are in route?" krshhhh "Copy 404. We are in route." My soul has been shot. The way I feel about love, you, my own life, I'm so damaged its sickening. How the hell do I fix this? Where do I begin? My whole soul has been shot up and I bet you don't even care. The place where me, my foundation of me, comes from and that was once able to stand back up when it was knocked down. Damn. Let me try again... The fall impacted me so tremendously because how could one day you say you love me and than the next day you leave me. How in 24 hours can someone's emotions just change like that? This was suppose to be it. To be it. Not the end of it but the "to be it" of me looking any further. I'm gonna have to stand back up. Whether its with my Jordans or my 6 inch heels. I AM going to stand back up. My soul has to heal it just has to. ________Gun Shots____________ krsshhhh"223 where are you? The victim also has a gun shot wound to the head. EMT are you in route? Make it quick guys..." My head. Oh my god, my head. Its killing me. Never have I ever had so much stress to the point I cried and my eyes turned red. Red the color or passion yet also the color of blood. Ugh my head. So many times, I see in my mind the life we were suppose to have. I lay here holding my wound, closing my eyes hoping that this is a dream, that the anger you lashed out on me was only just a dream. All that screaming, yelling and cries we shared, how could this be. Ugh my head. Its killing me. Why did you leave me? Why did you keep lying to me? Why can't you take the blame for anything? Why not make me happy? I'm shaking... Oh my god. What is happening?... Is this it? Oh god yes this is it... I tried, I tried to hold on to something that I needed to let go... I have to move on.. I wanted us to work.. I..I wanted...I'm..not..gonna.. Beeepppppp...(flat line) "krshhhhh 223 to base. We arrived to late. Victim DOA 5:30pm...." krshhhhh....over and out...krshhhh