pain

pain is not even trusting yourself

so many thoughts wandering here and there 

no longer caring about your own health 

awake all night but dont even give a care

so alone no matter popularity

judgemental looks in the hallway at school

never on the level of society

unknowing parents are the only fool

the thought of isolation warms your heart

you crave relief yet you are so frightened 

thoughts resemble a cluttered work of art 

laughing makes you feel enlightened 

her bright eyes cant last forever she fears

once joyful memories now bring ttears to her eyes