Pain

My pain is indescribable, 

Something so real, 

The type of shit that kills,

I’ve lost my smile, 

I still wonder why my life is coming crashing down, 

I can’t sleep because the devil walks behind me in my dreams, 

I pray to the lord but he doesn’t hear my me, 

This pain is like sharp endless blade, 

A dagger which has cut deep within my soul, 

As if the life is being sucked out of me, 

physically I am strong but internally I feel weak, 

I’ve bled out every sing drop even though my heart still beats, 

I question my insanity but i haven’t lost the will to live, 

I can’t shed a tear because my biggest fear is showing weakness, 

So here I am a the lonely man living in despair, 

Hoping for a blessing because no one is there.