Pain

Pain

It's all so much to gain 

I can't contain my life that's in vain

Pushing through open doors

Watching the blood run across the floor

Pain wrenching all the way deep in my core

Not so sure I can take much more

More of this test

I need to rest

Done all I can

I gave it my best

But it's not enough

I can't give up now I gotta stay tough

I hear everyday that life gets rough

But trials disappear with a silent puff

Puff of air that I breathe

Puff of air that I need

Break through the glass just to see

See all that I can be

Once I see what I can be I can be filled with glee

Glee as I strode across the stage

knowing my chapter has ended but I've got to turn the page 

Can't live my life off of minimum wage

I have the choice to do what I want I'm of that age

Now I gotta try to get through these days

Problems flying every which way

People ask me everyday if I'm okay

And what do I say

Is this life just a game I've got to play

If so then I've already lost

Can't live in fear everyday of not knowing the cost

The cost of what I say or do

The cost of what I go through

Cause God's on my side

With him on my side I ain't got nothing to hide

Giving me the courage to just step outside

I'll come through for you

Because after being there for me for so long it's the least I can do

Gotta prove the strereotypes wrong

Been descriminated against for so long

Now I'm trying to descriminate against myself?

Blaming myself for problems that I can't help?

Not knowing if I should go right or left?

All because of what I've been told

All because of the weight I have to hold

Wanting to dig myself into a hole just to see

See if anybody will remember me

See if anybody will even notice I'm not there

See if there's anybody that'll care

See if anybody has knowledge to share

All I want is to be loved and cared for

To be remembered for all that I can do and not where I came from

Is that so much to ask?

Getting judged for messing up a simple task

People not knowing if my life will last

Comparing me to my past

Everybody say I gotta get through on my own but it's all moving to fast

My struggles make me an outcast

No one wants to deal with an emo freak

No one wants to deal with someone who is so weak

So weak they can't speak without everybody laughing at mee

They laugh now but they don't see

See the struggles that weigh me

Weigh me down until I'm no more

Weigh me down until I'm nothing but a mess on the floor

Body spasming as I cry until I can't cry no more

Wondering if I can keep on

Knowing that this is a race that life has already won