Pain

I associate you with pleasure thats why I keep running back. Yours words matched by your actions got me Thinking you will never go back to who you use to be in my life. I Gotta accept certain things will never go back to what they use to be. What im holding onto just doesn't exist anymore.. the more I accept what is and who you are now the less I will be controlled by what was the love you had for me I gotta stop hanging onto you when you have already let go of me. Can't lie if I was honest to you i have to be honest with myself. I am addicted to you feeling sick I cant go a day without thinking of you I am addicted to the feeling you use to give to me like a bad drug my body was hooked on Addicted to the person you use to be when you aren't even that person anymore change came and you left right behind it i have to train myself when I'm going back down memory lane husband and wife myself in suit her beauty enhanced in a wedding dress fitting perfectly walking isle I have to remember that person isn't pleasure that person is pain. Things got tuff more than she could or wanted to handle worst thing when the silence came eye contact on conversion change knowing she grew unhappy couldn't admit to it add that to the pain I inflicted we share the blame instead of coming together having courage to fight and work it out she used that courage and strength called it quits and walked out