the pain that I go through♥

The pain is in my body. My heart. My mind. The things that I go through. I been hurt so much. That I can't stop crying. My head would hurt. I like to be alone. As my body starts to get tight. Nobody doesn't know how I feel. My emotions starts to dig inside a big whole. As I drowned myself in water. So the pain will go away. You know. As I just want to be alone. Because my body shakes. And nobodys their to here you. Ohhhhh god. Please help me. As I washed the water away out of my system. Drinking and driving. Smoking and getting high. To make this pain go away. I realized that you wasn't their for me. As I walked out of the dark clouds. As I party hard. That I just wait for men. To have sex with me. To give me money $$$. I don't know what to do. The sickness is in me. The pain is in me. Wow. I just can't help it what I do. My life is going to do down the drain. If I don't stop. Nobody haven't gave me the structure. In my life. The life that iam living. Is not the life that I want to live. Need help. Need to talk to someone. To hold me. To get me out of this stress. Everything is not eazy. Life was like a roalercoster for me. My heart droped. As I returned to my home. The keys droped. As the pain that I go through. Stoped. As I run. The tragic things that rain through my voice. People though as I was crazy. As the seasons changed. My pain. My thoughs. I cannot ever forget you. ♥