Pain Of Love

I wish these thoughts would leave my head Thoughts of time wasted and love being dead I cannot keep an open heart For too many times mines been ripped apart Nobody to blame but myself Ruining it on my own with no help Idk why my life goes this way hoping for a fresh and fruitful day Its the feeling of your love I seek I just dont feel it...it must be weak I want to feel it so very bad Because at this moment it's making me sad I do think you care to an extent you see But I just dont know that you truly love me Sometimes I wonder and it keeps me up all night Right now it feels like your love is slight I hope it isn't and its just me I don't like the feelings its giving me Feelings of pain from loving you With no love in return seems fake from you Its like when you kiss me its seems unclear Whether or not you are sincere I know im not your style being a thug with thug fashion But I do have this thing its called compassion I long for your love everyday Im hoping ill get it one of these days I dont wanna lose you god knows its true I want a life just me and you I know I dont deserve these things I ask In the end I'll probably be alone a daunting task I wouldn't find true love ever again It will always be for you until my end....