Pain painted picture

Far from mudane Most people say im downright insane So much pain My life encumbered away To a endless slumber I wanna lay I want to die is something i rarely say Hopefully you can relate Because my success and my happiness Inexplicably correlate For this I guess i blame fate So for my innocence I will vindicate While i think of my future I stay up late and contemplate My agony is what keeps me awake So I'll use it for the art i create The poems i narrate And the wisdom i originate With words a picture I paint Tragedy and originality They do captivate When they authentically Fascinate