Painful death

Tear after tear streaming down my face uncontrollably wishing everything was different. I want to return time to when we were happy and laughing, I wish you were still here with us... with me... it's impossible... you can't be dead already... you promised... you promised you'd always be there... well where are you now? You left me here alone... please come back even if its just for the night.... But please stay with me again I need you around I can't do this on my own I was so used to you being here with me is handling things together I know you did things in the past that your family isn't happy about but I loved you and even though you're not here I miss you by my side at night. When will all of this get better? Heart in pieces shattered on the floor tears streaming down my face Crying myself to sleep hugging my pillow tighter and tighter wishing it was you hugging me back tight telling me it'll be okay, but no one is there...