panic mode

what if we dont get this fixed

what if we fail this investigation

what if she takes me away from mom and dad

what if my siblings and i get seperated 

what if dameon gets sent ot his father 

 what if the girls get put in foster care

what if i get sent to JDM

what if im not allowed to see them

what if eve and the other girls get seperated

what if the foster home they go to is abusive

what if they dont understand cherish

what if she gets punished for adhd fits 

 what if they dont understand akira

what if she has one of her episodes

who will explpain cherish's fits 

who will know shes naturally hyper

what if they get hurt because of their fits

who will explain  my meltdowns 

who will understand my  need for a schedule

who will make sure i have stimming toys 

who will patiently redirect cherish when she gets distracted for the 20th time in an hour

who will tolerate and cater to akira's sensory issues

who will understand how sensitive she is 

who will sing to  her when she has nightmares  

  who will remind dameon to eat 

who will understand he has blood sugar problems 

who will make sure he wears his glasses

who will tuck eve in for her naps 

who will hug her  and kiss her scratches 

who will pick her up when shes crying and spin her round 

when will the investigation be over

when will she visit with us again

when will we know what is decided

when will she leave is alone

when will mom be able to press charges 

when will she realize what she has done to our fmaily

when will she pull me out of class next

 why would someone do this to us

why wouldnt someone understand our fmaily

 why do we have to do what she says

 why are we expected to talk to her

 why would anyone say such horrible things

why wouold anyone cause kids such torment

 how are we going to get through this 

how am i supposed to cope with this

 how am i going to react when she comes back

how are my siblings expected to understand this 

how do people live with themselves in that line of work 

all the deep breaths in the world wont calm me down  

panic mode in full gear!