The paper cup clause

I woke up this morning apprehensively screaming your name

The sound of the radio in the morning hush reminds me of the promise you made to hear me no matter

how far apart we got

I guess it was one of those promises you say but in no way mean

The goodbye kisses all forgotten

and faces washed and fingernails cleaned

and smiles deflated and meaningful earworms replaced with new songs

Sometimes I feel like the future we dreamed when we laid together was a game we played

to pass the time

I guess we've got bigger fish to fry now

You're off to your next chapter

but I'm a slow reader

but I think we knew when we started that we couldn't keep on the same page

I remember sitting in your lap and praying that no one I knew would see

Now I sit along on the blue linoleum and ignore everyone

They don't worry about me anymore except that

'Kay seems a little reclusive lately. I wonder what's wrong.'

I feel like the times we had were a dream that I had on a particularly lonely night

Trying to remember is like catching clouds to cream my coffee

It's like you were never here

but then how do you explain this hole in my chest

I certainly didn't put it there and I never let anyone come as close as you did

Like filling a paper cup with the heart of me

I can't combine oranges and psychological concepts that way

Metaphysical lyricism has never been harder

Anyway, I love you

But I think maybe you knew that already