Paranoid

Who you think i am i’m not i’m completely

Different

I’m paranoid

Always wondering if someone is out to get me

I see people smile in my face

And i wonder if their being sincere 

I’m broken

I want to trust people but when you've

Been stabbed in the back so many times its hard

I pretend nothing hurts me gotta stay strong crying is a weakness

My mind says

You cry and you'll show everyone your not strong

Tough

But you would be weak 

Worthless 

I feel bad when I cut people off or I won't let them in

Last person i let in ruined me to the core 

 I touch a pen and I put to paper

All the feelings i feel and

That paper must want to cry a river 

Because what i write is deep 

Deeper than the great sea

My tears run down my face for eons

Because these emotions will never stop

Their bounding 

Their ceaseless

Their constant

They will be eternal

She has so much potential but she wastes her  time

What if i don’t maybe i seem that way but I'm not

I see you judging me look away from this coward of a girl i am afraid to show my true self 

I touch the key on my computer to find others 

Who are lost like me

I understand that I'm 14 and I have time to learn and grow

I understand not everyone in the world is out to get me

I understand ok 

I 

do