Parental Figure

Drowned myself in your self being 

Made sure you were okay 

Made sure the tsunami of pain, poetry and pills didn’t hit you

I was drowning but that’s nothing new 

It’s all the same 

Told me I needed to stop being so depressed 

Told me that this depression was all I was becoming 

So I carved out the pieces of me that you wanted to throw out 

But you threw me out 

So I Stitched back what little I had left in me

Brought myself back to life 

12 hours later I laid in a hospital bed 

Told the goddess that gifted me with life that I didn’t want this anymore 

She could have it back 

I’d like a refund 

You see This depression is real 

It’s not like La Llorona, it’s scarier than anything that she could be 

She stayed and you left 

So this is me 

This is me asking you for help 

This is me reaching out 

Please don’t let go 

Not again