Patience for the Glory Days

Sitting here watching these objects fly by then disappear into the past, Im falling behind. I close my eyes to see those blue skies but Im spinning on a ride that doesn't have an end time, when the hell am I gonna get this mood right? This fear has taken over my body my mind is pulling to survive but rotting. This love vs. logic psychology is becoming a greater part of me cuz my love is my logic, no one can ever deposit hurtful words into my heart, its known for hitting curve balls out of the park. But that doesn't mean its insusceptible to pain, without pain theres no gain but with this pain I feel I'm going insane all I want to do is fix it so we can go back to our bliss and live free again, the good days. But not this day because my smile has gone and burned away. The night before my words were sore my mind ran off into this shock like Othello losing control and letting the fear shadow his entire soul. When put under difficult situations I need time and patience for I struggle with on the spot questions, I always fail my tests but I understand the criteria, I have the sense, but I don't have the quick function defense that's why Im always stressing out that word, Pat-ience. Somebody get me a glass of water please or better yet an AED Im beeling the sudden skip in my chest, this pain has taken my body under arrest. I do confess I aint always doing my best but I continue to live a life full of gifts and miracles. Truly blessed....and my life aint even over yet. But I still gotta pull through, yall havent seen nothin yet. My glory days sit and waitin ahead. Just got to clear my own path its time for me to pull ahead.