Patient

Waiting for death's cold embrace Saying this doesn't amount to my mental state I've watched my own refection deteriorate My mind vacant in space Let that sink in while you contemplate It isn't faith that holds my fate Predetermined by those who hate Will it be grace or gracious To leave earth and the universe In my rear view mirror image The image distorted My mind contorted and eroded away My soul is in disarray My body tries to walk sideways This is not the way To live if death's an inch away I could slip away quietly and quickly So called friends who never see me Suddenly when I'm gone they'll miss me Only my family, ie my brothers who get me Understanding of the love run we're there for each other no matter the weather Through thick and thin we'll stay together We've been through what the world doesn't know Although we stand stronger than ever Done with sending hand writing love letter Love is a man made construct that we fool ourselves turning to believers Building a dam to block out all the Beavers and non keepers Key component to this catilyst was the coronavirus So I lay in wait Till I get to that day When my eyes don't open and I can just lay Consciousness just slowly drifting away I know there's no one who will want me to stay In a panic heart pulpitations causing Havok Equally it's chaotic Mind finding battles my body can't take part in Was open and loving World turned me cold and stunning