Perfect

You said perfect

That I was perfect

My freckles were perfect

How am I so perfect-

Someone knows my name and that makes me perfect?

I don't have many issues with how I look and that makes me perfect

I make jokes and so I am perfect

Perfect perfect just ever so perfect

I don't feel perfect but you say I am

You say I am beautiful and smart and funny

The perfect girl, an amazing friend

Is perfect the word that I look for?

When I'm talking to myself, scolding myself

When I think 'what is wrong with me?' and the only answer is everything

When I cry over the stupidest things

When I can't let myself ask for the smallest thing

When I convince myself that no one really likes me

When I convince myself that no one really likes me so the only reason anyone ever says they do is because I am manipulating them

When I brush off every person who finds me with a problem

When I say that I am just overreacting about everything

When I say that everything I do is just for attention 

When I ran away from home

When I stop talking because of how many times I've been told nobody cares

When I can't do my school work without breaking down

When I can't validate a single reaction I have

Is this what you call perfect?

Because perfect means I'm fine

And I have cute freckles so I'm perfect

And I'm perfect, so I'm fine