To the person I once knew...

Dear Friend,

No, that's not it

Dear love,

Dear dreamer,

Dear ex,

Dear stranger,

I didn't think I had many words for you

In fact, I didn't have any

Not until now

You lured me in

A fisher, hard at work and good at his job

Then you left me out at sea, still reeling

Your beautiful words haunt me,

Riveting strings that brought me to the moon now weigh me down,

Dragging me six feet under

My heart beating as though it's punishing me

Screaming at me

How could you do this?

But I know you're only human

I know you're still learning,

Still living

I know you didn't want to hurt me anymore than I wanted to hurt you

All you wanted was something more,

Your next beauty

Your next love

It isn't your fault

And yet 

It is

All I feel is a rock, tied around my feet and around my faith,

Dragging me in to the darkness

Wanting me to never, never, do this again

Whispering that you meant it

That you wanted this to happen

I shouldn't have been so naive

So stupid

So grossly uninformed

It was a game and everyone knew the rules except me

Now we talk,

You laugh, 

As though it was nothing for you

You show me pictures of crushes, of boyfriends, of girlfriends

You smile, happy, and I smile too

But I'll never forget when those words were for me

When you had landed in my sky and all the stars were bright

Never