please tell me

I tried, that's all i could do. Nothing i could do would fix it, nothing would heal it, nothing would even make a dent to try and fix what i so royally fucked up. I tried, that’s all i could do.

She just moved on, like nothing ever happened. why? why do i deserve it? I messed up, i apologized and tried to fix things and make everything better. I guess it just wasn’t meant to be and wasn't supposed to happen. She just…moved on.

Why is it so hard? to just, be happy and find happiness being with someone? fuck it man, it’s not worth it, ever again. I won’t let myself get hurt like that again, not now and not ever. Why is it so hard?