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numb. one word for many feelings you don't feel the problem is i don't feel anything other than pain i bet you think its all a game I'm sure its fun for you okay next stop taping that wall im not coming I'm going to sit here and see how long it takes you to realize im not moving i told you I'm in pain i have nothing to lose and yet nothing to gain my meaning for life ??????????? i don't know why am i even here god must have a sense of humor because he seems to be the only one laughing walking alone i wish he would hold my hand and remember its only me I'm the only one who cares about me i talk to myself because i am the only person who understands im not misunderstood you just don't understand you just can't connect you say you get it but you don't misunderstood seriously , I'm pass that its more of i don't know how to tell you how i feel your suppose to just know if you don't just know then you don't deserve to know i wish i was kidding and i wish this was a game