Poem to my Father

All my life I wanted my dad But I never had that and it makes me sad When I see other kids with their parents I deep down can't understand it Why I can't have a normal family Its like yall just had me and abandoned me And years later came back but you never bothered Trying to understand me And you never asked me how I felt Because deep down I hate myself And maybe that's why you left Because I'm fucked up and you Didn't offer to help Fix what you destroyed I know deep down you wish you had all boys And I took that shit hard So many things you said I will forever keep it in my heart.