Pointless

                              Pointless 

• I am who I was born to be 

• Some people are born to be athletes, some people are born to be actors 

• I was 10 then closed my eyes, and then was 16 and then closed my eyes again, and was 23 

• I was trying to figure out what the point of life is since I was 10 

• Is it to be happy? Is it to create for the new generation of people? Is it pointless? 

• Yet still to this day I can’t figure it out 

• People tell you not to harm yourself, but I don’t understand why 

• Do they care? So what if they care 

•  I got a life, fell in love, then worked at my aunt’s house to make money, to…...Live

• Maybe that’s it! I thought to myself, but no that’s not the reason 

• If I was no longer here what bad things would happen? 

• I turned 27 and held 3 master degrees in the STEM field in college 

• I became a pilot then an astronaut 

• I went to space and looked at earth continuously wondering, I still had 2 weeks until going back to earth 

• Sometimes I would think about how other people thought and thought they thought like me, in fact exactly like me 

• I realized maybe life was pointless 

• Weeks passed and I finally arrived home and in one week of arriving at home I got into a divorce 

• Then I felt something…...Sadness 

• Tears fell from my eyes and I realized why people lived, to feel happiness, sadness, to feel…….emotions 

• Yet I felt sadness and sadness only 

• Life was pointless, trapped in a body filled with sadness 

• But then the day I longed for arrived 

• Sitting in my bed waiting for the end to come 

• All the times I cried I was grateful for

• The tears released some of the sadness in the trapped body of mine 

• Yet I still haven't died 

• So it ends now with myself in this body of sadness 

• Floating in the air with a rope around my neck, finally being satisfied