The Poison of Me.

To love, is to die.
To feel, is to cry.
To love is to wish.
To love is to want.
But in a world where blowjob eyes are better than emotion,
And that very thing makes you sick,
To love, is to respect.
To feel is to be hurt.
You just want a friend. 
A healthy relationship will make your life gumdrops and rainbows
Unless you're like me.
Everything could be fine and I would crumble.
My tears rolling down my face like Niagra Falls,
And my body quivering like an earthquake ripping through Callifornia as we speak. 
A perfect love doesn't make you do what you dont want to.
They offer you the little things because thats all you've ever wanted.
They give you warm hugs.
They hold your hand on crowded streets.
They don't want to abuse you or use you.
A perfect love is there to let you know you are their favorite.
But because I love someone I will let myself be a doll.
I will fall to their knees because more than anything I need them to stay,
I will curse myself out for being pathetic and then wait.
I wait for the kind words that never fall.
I wait for the hug that never reaches me.
I wait for them to leave me. 
Thats the only thing I've waited for that has happened. 
A healthy relationship isn't healthy when you add me to the equation.
It's like adding an imaginary number to algebra.
If it's algebra one it's unsolvable.
If its algebra two its harder to solve.
I am a variable only good for destroying equations.
I am a human being who cannot be in a relationship happily.
It cannot be healthy. 
I know what I want but i won't ever happen.
So what is a healthy relationship for?
Not me.
A perfect love, isn't a love.
A perfect love is a friend.