Poisoned memories

I went to remember old memories I saw a closed door I asked to go through I walked in I was so shocked I saw my father I smiled But it didn't last long ... He was cooking My plate was always last given I see him go around the corner I follow He's reaching for medicine.... Ear drops? He put some in my food ... Is this real? Why Are you actually poisoning me? Your child I woke up Scared Sweating I had a full panic attack Crying none stop ... I called my doctor I want to see my old records... He said I knew this day would come.... What does that mean? I stay silent.... Please tell me why I would be sick every year Throwing up none stop for a week Loosing weight Not enjoying life Being stuck in bed Wishing for death at suck a young age I was being poisoned by a man I called dad I knew be never wanted me I didn't look like my sister's Always thought I was from an affair.... Got more information Confronted my mom I know he's not in our lives A situation came up and she finally had enough and left But wtf? He was poising your kid.... He was trying to kill me It took you what for me to turn 17 to finally walk away It wasn't even because of what he did to me She voted and hugged me I went to therapy... At age 5 I was being killed by a man I looked up too I was to young to understand what he was doing to me I was told it was to put more flavor... I was isolated by kids my age I was the sick kid No one wanted to be my friends I spent most of my time at home I can't even even come around to face this man anymore But I can't block him because I want to confront him I'm stuck in my own head Poisoned memories I wish I never found out