post breakup

I think about you 

Night and day

Wishing these feelings

Would just disintegrate

Part of me 

Wants you to stay

Part of me 

Just wants to decay

I've been having

 these feelings

Say i'm doing great

But really,

I got to admit

I'm not okay.

35.) Numb

Say you feel numb

Numb to all emotion

Tell myself i'm done

Done with all this bullshit

Acting fine

As if I wasn't

Just crying

Tell me im strong

Little do you know

I'm barely hanging on