To pray her name

Were my love

to be simply carved in stone

With words I read

so not to feel so all alone

Could I find my peace

here within my home

where she lives with me

Time too will pass

but nothing will have changed

My holding fast

remembering the pain

This paragon

I wear it like a chain

to show my shame

Not once in life

have I ever met

Nor would I wager

ever to forget

But then again

I would lose that bet

were it not for her

There was a time

briefly now it seems

When my waking life

exceeded all my dreams

And now I'm left

just learning what it means

to lose her love

In truth she lives

with every breath I take

I hear her voice

with every choice I make

In dreams she waits

until the morning breaks

tearing me away

What is that faith

that begs my will to change

what is this fear

refusing to be named

why must my life

be something to be taned

so to live again

I surround myself

with the waters of the deep

My only shame

are the secrets that I keep

Yet every night

just before I sleep

I pray her name

And of her face

the one that she would show

A kind of soul

I will never know

A yellow flower

needing space to grow

has made me weep

My days will end

and I will be alone

Free at last

from all this skin and bone

but in the end

what broke my heart of stone

is now a part of me